Over the years my fitness has had many highs and many lows. I've gone from not exercising at all, to exercising 2 hours a night - 6 days a week, never running, to running 7km's every morning, giving it up completely, to joining a gym, cancelling my membership, joining another gym, cancelling again, I'm sure you get what I'm getting at, my fitness journey for years has been all over the shop, I've never stuck at my fitness for more than a year at a time without giving up on it in between. I love it when I'm really into it, but I've never felt like I've been doing it for the right reasons, until now.
So this year I've reevaluated my 'why' and come at my life, my health, my fitness, from a completely different angle, the angle of.. for pure enjoyment and for the love of it, not for change or to escape.
At the beginning of this year I didn't set myself any crazy exercise goals like I usually would, I simply said to myself that I'd like to do more yoga, and that I've done. I didn't put pressure on myself to do all the things, just one thing, and I've been doing it and purely for the love of it. I've done numerous yoga classes now and the benefits have been beyond what I could have ever imagined, inside and out, and I feel like the enjoyment I've gotten out of each and every class has been so incredible that I might actually continue it throughout the year, for the rest of the year, for the first time during my on and off yoga journey.
Recently I had this urge to join a gym (again), this is my fourth gym. So I did it, but this time with zero expectation on myself, no pressure to go every single day and push myself to my limits. Instead, I've been seeing a personal trainer once a week to find my rhythm again, learn new things and simply enjoy the practice of working out, and I've been having the time of my life going just once a week. You may think what is the point of working out once a week at a gym, well if you are physique focussed, probably not a lot, but from my very first personal training session I said to my trainer and myself that I'm just here to maintain my health and have fun, that whatever else happens because of it is a bonus. I've been going now for 4 weeks and can already feel and see small differences, though again that's not why I'm doing it, it's an incredible thing to see differences even without the pressure of exercising day after day. I've learnt that your body responds better when it's loved.
I've come a long way from exercising 2 hours a night - 6 days a week (ridiculous right?) and it becoming a chore, to be at a point now where I'm bouncing out of bed at 5am because I cannot wait to train blows my mind. I do plan on adding at least 2 more sessions in of my own per week gradually when I regain my strength and am feeling up to it, but right now, my body is absolutely loving my little routine of yoga and strength training, and so am I.
When I stopped putting pressure on myself, comparing myself, and focusing on particular goals, I finally found enjoyment, I finally found love for my fitness journey. It's taken me years of highs and lows throughout it, but I finally feel like I've found my happy place within my body, within my health and within my fitness. I no longer train from a place of change, I'm doing it because I love my body, because I want to still be healthy in 20 years time, not just because I want to be ripped in 12 weeks time.
Everyone is on a different journey, and this is simply mine and the path I've chosen that works for me. Just know that there is no right or wrong, what matters is doing what is right for you and what works for you at this very given time in your life (and this could be completely different to what you even did yesterday). Be proud of yourself no matter where you are at, and if you aren't finding enjoyment and love in what you are doing, take a step back, maybe it's time to do something differently, just make sure it's for you because that's when the magic happens.
All my love,